Doubts and Changes

self evaluation of my doubts and the changes it may cause.

Thinking keeps me busy, I think in a lot of things a lot of activities a lot of ideas but I never end up thinking about a certain person for hours. Consumes my time though I'm having fun, well having conversations are fun but I don't really like conversations. Well hows that? Great! that's why I'm having doubts.

Connection, Yes, I feel somehow connected and I don't know why or is it just my imagination doing that? I 'm puzzled, I'm doubting.

Plus, I have observed that connection leads to closeness and closeness puts you in a certain position in a person's life but I don't even know if I have the capacity to try and involve myself to take a significant part on a persons life. Or maybe I'm wrong or rather I can simply try to know what it could be like. that's if I can. so this leaves me the option to explore more on what I can't do rather on focusing on what I can do. By doing so, Will I cross the boundaries and invade the unexplored part of myself? Will I take the risk? I don't know what lies there. Am I afraid? Maybe or maybe not. I don't know but I'm in the process.

to be continued for changes...(having a hard time dealing with it) lol