Rhyming while thinking of my hunn

Free flowing, emotions arising we're high and transcending
a crazy world with full of possibilities surrounded by failures without capabilities
we're always at our prime even sometimes running out of dime but never time
Problems pops, at times tears won't stop but at the end of the day our love never stops
I love you with all my might, we both know what is right and we'll wait till we reach the day that we'll be both wearing white
Some people may delay, some people would just likely to stay even though they causes such dismay all of these won't be a factor if we have each other all day
Constant communication creates a great connection between us results in sensible discussions and meaningful conversations
And by times we missed each other, we just think and never let someone bother while thinking soon we'll see each other
mood swings, go deep inside our minds and made us think
Now thinking of the future, we have a lot to nurture to improve what we'll have for our future feature
Rest assured, I'll be sure to make our lives meaningful despite of hardships and ridicule still this will remain as a whole.

PS: tamad mag edit..

Silence isn't nothing

I do have a plain and simple plan

and I'm so sure I don't have any fan

with this plan, I have started the race

It's set regardless of what people I face

While Fear and Shame lurking in my mind

I compartmentalize, conquer myself and find

the sea of people, fazed, intrigued about my disguise

the hate, wait, faith carved in their face as I shoot them with lies

I laugh to the fullest I think I'm the smartest

their ignorance completely describe how a failure they are

I'm not make believing because it's better than not knowing

I'm an ignoramus, better off leaving their mind confusing

With this plan that I'll lead I do not wish to succeed

instead, I just have to retain the recent status that people believe

people have been divided, defied and have been denied the truth

for my silence, never reached their minds because of a stupid fool

So I ain't gonna talk but I am gonna walk

to move forward, to motivate and talk

love drove me to stay this way although i know i'll be in shame

but I am sure, all will be pissed off at the end cursing me by name.

Does my silence puzzle your mind?

A letter to B-One

Dear B1,

I am very thankful that you are so eager to come by here and spend time with me.
Though I know you have a lot to consider by the time I invited you, still you answered me positively with no hesitations. The only concern is whether the "higher authority" will let you go or not. But that's not the problem at all since few days after that you actually confirmed that you're coming. At first I am just grateful that finally! finally, there's a good friend whom I can bring at the night out. For a while I never thinked of you, I have in my mind that you'll come and it's given, I don't have to go further to you as my subject. My mind was focused on something that was actually nothing soon as I find out. Then things continue to progress and I started realizing that those something around me were actually nothing. It was empty, I feel like deserted, No I am deserted, I just feel like more than that. Then I actually removed the possibility of something and focuses on what I might have. Then I thinked of you, I remembered, I recalled you are not something. definitely not something, for you're the real thing.

Then I started thinking of you, the next time I know, I'm rationalizing. I asked myself Why? Why did you say yes? though you can say No that easily, there's a dozen of reasons why you have to say No and you end up saying yes. I'm not much of a good friend, I admit. I do make you laugh sometimes, but I do annoy you as well. I have never done something significant for you but Im sure you have done a lot for me. The votes and other stuffs I can't remember. as for what I've done for you, it's just a mere thanks everytime after you vote. So I clearly don't see any reason why you have to go. But then I answered in your behalf, by "what ifs" a lot of what ifs actually, I have thought a lot of good reasons and there could be a possibility that there's no reason at all. I'm puzzled, confused I overthink I questioned but all I have for an answer is my thoughts. Stupid move though I have learned If you want to know something about a person, then ask that person. Despite the fact that I know that, The truth is I'm afraid to ask, it might implicate an idea that I don't want you to go or other ideas you might think on why I asked that question. Then I ignored it and focus on you again. This time to know you more, we conversed and stay late night exchange a lot of ideas, invent jargons on us and a lot more.

I have to tell you it's fun. I would like having more of those, I would like to know more of you because suddenly you're interesting. I wish it could stay like this even after the night out. Also, I would like you to know that you've been a good friend, one of the best I've had. A friend to keep. This is my way of saying thanks, as you have said "I'm a man of words" I'll dedicate to you this epic post. Whether you like it or not it doesn't matter, the most important thing is the message that it'll deliver. If you have fun reading then thanks and If you don't I'm sorry for wasting your time. OVER and OUT.

SINCERELY,

B2

Doubts and Changes

self evaluation of my doubts and the changes it may cause.

Thinking keeps me busy, I think in a lot of things a lot of activities a lot of ideas but I never end up thinking about a certain person for hours. Consumes my time though I'm having fun, well having conversations are fun but I don't really like conversations. Well hows that? Great! that's why I'm having doubts.

Connection, Yes, I feel somehow connected and I don't know why or is it just my imagination doing that? I 'm puzzled, I'm doubting.

Plus, I have observed that connection leads to closeness and closeness puts you in a certain position in a person's life but I don't even know if I have the capacity to try and involve myself to take a significant part on a persons life. Or maybe I'm wrong or rather I can simply try to know what it could be like. that's if I can. so this leaves me the option to explore more on what I can't do rather on focusing on what I can do. By doing so, Will I cross the boundaries and invade the unexplored part of myself? Will I take the risk? I don't know what lies there. Am I afraid? Maybe or maybe not. I don't know but I'm in the process.

to be continued for changes...(having a hard time dealing with it) lol

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The Neutral Friend

I'm your neutral friend
I'm not a friend in deed
and definitely not that friend
when you're in need

I don't give any advice
but I do have some words
which can serve as a guide
to bother your time and add some spice

I'm far different compared to those stereotypes
yet I'm close being the ones with the positive insights
theres some point that I can develop something
and some point that I can ruin everything

I'm not really the type of friend to keep
and don't even bother to get involved with me too deep
for I can abandon all of you in an instance
so remember to keep your heads up and measure the distance

So am i good? or am I bad?
the answer is neutral, not chosing a side
well it is actually chosing a side
and that side is not chosing a side

maybe I'm somewhere in between?
altering the good and the bad at certain situations
maybe I'm not your friend?
pity you for considering me as one, because I don't

or this is just merely over thinking and this doesn't matter at all.
after all, you have a neutral friend to call. :))

emow

bago matulog
gusto ko munang mabusog
sa mga flashes ng mukha mo sa screen
para sa panaginip ko nandun ka rin

uh. wala pa ring kupas!
fuck, malamang late ako nito bukas
pero ok lang dahil ikaw ay nasilayan
sapat na para ako ay maligayahan

so pano? pagkatapos ng ilang minuto
ako'y solve sa sarap ng specialty mo
hanggang sa susunod na madaling araw
magkikita tayo emow